So, in two weeks and 24 hours I will be finished with the bar. Holy crap that is so scary it makes me want to die. But at the same time, it is completely exciting that I only have 2 more weeks of this lifestyle, and then my life will change completely and be entirely new and different.
My bar studies have been like a roller coaster which, if you’ve ever talked to someone who has studied for the bar, is probably not a shocker. For the past six weeks (and for two weeks longer) I will wake up and spend all day, every day, studying for the bar.
According to my bar review program (which is, in my opinion, the best in the state of Maryland), a perfect bar study student should follow the following schedule:
8:00 a.m. to 11:30 a.m. Review notes from last night’s class; do 30 minutes of multiple choice practice (17 problems); do 2 essay questions (25 minutes each); review the correct answers for the multiple choice and essay questions, and do flashcard reviews of 2 subjects.
1:00 p.m. to 4:30 p.m.: Study an assigned subject plus review another subject. 6:00 p.m. to 10:00 p.m.: Go to class.
Now, for confession time, let’s get real: have I done problems every day? NO. have I finished 2 essays every day? NO. have I woken up and started working by 8:00 a.m. every day? NO WAY. Not even close. have I been to every class? No — they are boring and go too late and my brain cannot function in a classroom setting after 8:00 p.m. So why bother? I can listen to the classes online on my own schedule, and get the same knowledge, right?
I honestly do not know. I have tried to go along with this program mostly, but I have not done everything as instructed and I think I am doing alright. When reviewed, my essays are always pretty good. When tested, my MBE scores are always above what I need to pass and waive into DC. But still, I am worried.
I worry because I am the kind of person who does what she is told whether or not it is the most efficient way to learn the material (hello, public school). I worry because no matter how prepared and confident I may be, something could go wrong and I could fail the bar. I worry because being too smart for your own good gets a lot of people into trouble, and I do not want to be that person who thought they were so smart they could do anything and ends up failing. I haven’t lived that way this summer — I have done problems and gone to a lot of classes I didn’t want to and taken three full-days of practice tests (with a 4th one on Saturday), but I still worry: what if I haven’t done enough?